Maybe just a piece of us

Chris works just under 80 hours a week.  Did I really just say 80?
I HATE that he works nights, but it makes the time go by a
whole lot faster than when he works days and
only 6 more to go for the rest of this year.
(which really isn't saying much since he will have to do 12 weeks of night float next year.)
Maybe I will conveniently be out of town.
I think  it is pathetic that I am excited for him to work 530am to 630pm 6 days a week;
Right now it's like a dream job.
Tonight he didn't want to go to work.  I didn't want him to go, but I didn't tell him that.
I think one of my roles is to be his cheerleader, so I didn't say that I wanted him to stay,
but I did.
He was nervous to go to work tonight.
I think it is stressful to learn how to be a doctor and I don't think people get it.
I didn't get it until now and maybe still don't.
I can't wait until January
Period.

I really like to run and I have my favorite songs that I like to listen to while I run.
If You're Going Through Hell and Club Can't Handle Me are two of my favorites right now.
but I can't run and I am frustrated beyond belief.
my knee aches and my hip pops!
I used to be able to run through the pain but it doesn't go away and I can't anymore.
It was my stress relief;
no other exercise helps.
I think I really just need a new pair of running shoes
mine have just a few too many miles on them.
I'm currently obsessed with the Pretty Little Liars books...I think I am on number eight,
but I don't remember.  Now I want to watch the show but we don't have cable. 
I have to watch my shows Criminal Minds, Grey's Anatomy, Private Practice
on the computer.  That's how I spent my Saturday night.
I am loving being home with the boys. 
It was a hard transition (some days still are hard)
We have been having a lot of fun together
We go to the library at least twice a week (we went 3 times this week)
and we like playing games Candy land and Bingo.
I am going to make them some Christmas presents again this year and I am excited.
PS Christmas is only 7 weeks from tomorrow.

Tracen loves to ride his bike and he still loves his trains.
All he wants for Christmas is the Polar Express that is as big as Papa's Pacific.
He is doing really good in school but today he told Chris that if he cut his hair wrong
then kids would laugh and call him a nerd.
It broke my heart.  I wonder where he learned that?
he is my tender spirit even though you would never know it.
he loves and idolizes his dad.
he brings me flowers and tells my I'm beautiful but
he will rarely say "I love you" with out you asking him to.
It is interesting.
Today he also told me that he wanted to sing
The Horse Put His Foot on the Ground for baby Beth but that he would only sing
the first verse because she wouldn't like the other ones-they get too loud and she is a baby.
He reminds us to say our prayers and was so sad that we didn't eat dinner
as a family last night because Chris got off work late.
I was frustrated too, not at Chris, but that I didn't know how to explain it to Tracen.
He was better when Dad got home and played Candy land with us.
He likes to sing and I love that he does.

Logan is learning his articles of faith. (and so is Tracen)
he can recite the first three and I love the way he says
"frew the atoment of Christ"
(yes I know those are spelled wrong-try to picture little 3 year old language.)
He loves his brother; they are best buddies.
I hope they stay that way!
Logan changes his clothes at least 3 times a day.
he always wants a jersey for nap, jammies for bed and will usually sneak into his swimsuit and shirt at some point only to take off everything to wrestle Tracen in his boxer briefs.
He is a big snuggler
but also has been known to throw some mighty tantrums in the past couple of weeks.
I didn't know how to handle them and now I do. 
He likes to ride his big boy bike, but he LOVES to play with his guys!
He wants everything for Christmas.
He usually shows up in my room around 4 every morning.
If Chris is gone he gets to sleep in Mommy's bed, but if Chris is home he sleeps on the floor
so he doesn't kick his daddy.

This is us in a nutshell...well
maybe just a piece of us.  We do good most of the time
but like most people we have our hard days too.
We are already listening to Christmas music.  It puts me in a good mood but we are still
excited for Thanksgiving.  I have been practicing my cooking...we will see how that goes.
I love my family.  I love my home.  I love my faith.  I love my music.  I love my life.